I made a mistake.
I didn’t think it would be enough to become non-existent.

It’s been a battle.
Understanding and wanting what you want for me.
I’m a victim only to my mind.
I swear upon hope and god above.
I still swear today, I was not crying wolf.
I was crying out, reaching towards you who has gotten me through flood waters.

I was not crying wolf.
I was crying out for a stronghold.
Now this bridge is blown to pieces and I have only myself to blame, even when I wasn’t me.
Me wasn’t who I was that day and you refuse to see.

Wearing the blinders, I’m sure it’s much simpler to be smiling with your silence.
There’s no more voices to interrupt your thoughts.
They were never peaceful though, were they?

I’m sorry for what I did.
I’m sorry.
But I’m even more sorry that you chose to let this bond die.


      1. Oh really ??? That’s wild ! I do apparently have some doppelgangers out there hah. I don’t believe I was at a dollar general but that is wild. How you are you ? I hope you’re well πŸ™‚

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      2. Yeah! I wanted to ask her name but I got shy… and I thought the likelihood of it actually being you was 1 in a million. So I just did usual pleasantries and went my way.

        But she’s definitely you. Lol!! Yay.. 2 Brittnys!

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      3. Haha yeah that would be awkward . Awkward is the worst when thinking the person is someone you know lol . I’ve been there so many times . There’s so many brittnys’ but they’re usually brittanys or brittney’s ha.

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      4. I have a lot of johns . I have my neighbor John, my adopted brother and friend John on this website and I believe another john somewhere haha. Johns are chill people . I like you johns lol πŸ˜†πŸ™‚

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      5. Haha nah you’re never singular ! πŸ™‚ Your posts are great. I havent been on in a while so I’m finally getting back and visiting pages. I really missed you guys. I went through a rough patch with my depression and with my uncle passing . I switched medications and those few weeks were rough. I became very depressed and off , not myself not motivated. It felt like the world itself was ending. I was really scared I wasn’t going to come out of it. Thank god I did . I do thank god and those who supported me. It sucked not being on here too but I just couldn’t do it with how I was feeling .

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      6. I’m sorry!

        I got discouraged with my old blog. I felt like nobody cared. And I just got to where I felt weird and insignificant. So I deleted it. I tried a few different blogs but deleted them. It got too easy to leave.

        I’m still not feeling 100% with this blog but I feel the Lord gave me a purpose with this one. So I’m hanging on.

        I saw your sister at DG and felt like I had to tell ya lol.

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